You are Two Sides to the Same Coin

While you are shadow, you are also spirit. You are both shadow and spirit. You are two sides to the same coin. Learn how to reconcile both sides of you. Learn how to integrate the shadow with your spirit.

The Martyr Shadow

You put others’ needs before yours. You often find yourself secretly hating yourself when you agree to things that you actually don’t want to do. You think that by being a good person you can inspire the other to change, even though you don’t express this sentiment out in the open. You get guilt feelings when you set boundaries with people. It’s hard saying no because you don’t like it when someone gets upset or mad over you. You find it hard to do things for yourself that brings delight, fun, and joy like going to the spa, taking a vacation, learning a new skill, or having a fun day to just go out with friends and have a laugh. You believe the purpose of life is self-sacrifice, but in that process, you are beginning to lose your identity in the service of others. As a result, you have lost respect for yourself.

The Manifestor Spirit

You love the outdoors and never to shy aware from an adventure. You are passionate about health, how to become healthier, and believe in holistic healing. You love hiking, yoga, sports, painting, spoken word, and literature. You love design, whether that’s video games, comic books, graphic design, and all things design.

Your Spirit's Calling

You are looking to be heard and you want to listen, deeply listen, because you know at the root of all things, you have profound things to say and learn, things that will encourage, inspire, and create new possibilities for yourself and in others. Thus, your journey is to become more fully expressive, creative, and self-confident.

The Beginning of Shadow Integration

To begin integrating The Martyr Shadow with The Manifestor Spirit, begin illuminating your shadow by journaling truth inside fiction, based on a true story, as a Journal-Artist.

Illuminate the Shadow, so you May Integrate It.

What you Suppress will Depress You.What you Express in Truth will Set You Free.

Begin Journaling,

Artist & Journal-Artist Inspired


1. Activate Your Subconscious

Practice deep listening to activate subconscious by browsing Journal by Shadow or Journal by Spirit to discover experiences that resonate with you. Then, pull quote of things you resonate with into your journal.

Don’t forget to give attribution to artist or journal-artist where you pulled the quote from.

2. Title and Format Journal Entry

“Title of Journal Entry”

Fiction. Based on a True __________.

by Your Name

3. Ways to Journal (choose one):

A. “The Passion Letter”—Write as if you are writing directly to that person.
B. “Message in a Bottle”—Write as if you need to confess something.
C. “The Novelist” —Someone tore a page out of your novel based on your past—what would they be reading?

These are options, not requirements. Write any way you want since this is your diary.

Journaling in the First "I" to Reveal the Reality of your Duality

“The Flashback” or “The Scene” or “The Narrative Novelist”

You can journal about a direct experience by taking us to the “scenes of the incident.” This is in the narrative form, as if we read a page in a novel or novella. Feel free to add personal flashbacks, backstory, and any other narrative scenes worthy of the “insider’s” attention. Write like you are confiding to a trusted best friend.

“The Passion Letter” 

This is a direct love letter, perhaps to the very person who has been tucked away inside your heart, the person you miss, the person you want to honor the memory of, or the person you hate.

What’s been brewing inside your heart? You could be ashamed of it because of how bitter it is, you could feel guilty because of something that is already too late that you wished you could go back in time to fix, you could be too proud to have said it in front of them so you have walled up but since this is the confession letter, it is something you have been truly feeling inside that you are addressing directly to them. Of course, this is just an exercise. Do not actually send it to them or if you do, do it at your own discretion. This exercise is solely designed for you to purge the things that’s been weighing you down. What you do with it is up to you.

Write from the heart. Write in the first.

“Love Letter to Self”

This is a personal love letter to your past, present, and/or future self. What lessons have you learned? What mistakes of the past are you no longer wanting to repeat in the present and future? What things need resolving right now? What hopes and dreams do you have for yourself in the future?

If you can travel back in time and talk to your younger self, what would you say?

If your future self could time travel to you right now, what would your future self say?

If you can travel to the future, what would you like to see yourself doing and becoming?

“Message in a Bottle”

If you were stranded on an island and decided you have nothing but time to reflect on life, what would you be saying? This can be life lessons, insights, and free flow thinking. It can be a free verse, a poem, a rant, anything goes.

  • “The Walls Up” Shadow Diary


The Spiritual War Between The Shadow and Spirit Within

“Unfortunately there can be no doubt that man is, on the whole, less good than he imagines himself or wants to be. Everyone carries a shadow, and the less it is embodied in the individual’s conscious life, the blacker and denser it is. If an inferiority is conscious, one always has a chance to correct it. Furthermore, it is constantly in contact with other interests, so that it is continually subjected to modifications. But if it is repressed and isolated from consciousness, it never gets corrected.”

—Carl Jung

Overcoming Your Blocks

Resurrection Power

The Phoenix dies in fire and is reborn a New Bird from the Ashes of Destruction. This fire bird has the ability to cycle through past, present, and future through the power of resurrection—it allows what is to be what is, then allowing it to destruct, and manages to take the silver linings of that destruction to create a new creature. In Chinese mythology, it is the Phoenix that contends with the Dragon.

In Shadow Integration, the Phoenix inside you will contend with the Dragon inside you. This is the dance battle of spiritual warfare. The faith you experience will be the faith in the power of redemption in a future glory of the Phoenix born out of the ashes of fire. The fear you contend with will be the dragon you have been divinely designed to defeat.